Adnan asked, do you have any feelings for me?
Raisa was a little surprised by such a direct question. But confidently said, no, no. If he had, he would have understood.
– So what I understand is wrong?
– What did you understand again?
– I thought you enjoyed my company. You feel a lot of comfort with me.
– Does feeling comfortable with someone mean liking them?
– It’s not to dislike either.
– That’s right. I have no dislike for you, just as I have no dislike for you. Neutral position. See I just got over a big shock. I’m not mentally ready for anything right now. No love, no marriage. And since you are not interested in friendship, love, marriage is the only thing suitable for you. I think you marry a good girl. That would be great.
Adnan let out a sigh and said, I didn’t think I was so unworthy, Raisa. Thought I had earned a place of trust in you. I thought you would trust me and hold my hand. That’s why I waited so long. If that was the case, I would have told you my thoughts at the beginning. But the fear of getting the answer from you in the beginning worked, I got the answer today after so long. I am really very unlucky.
Raisa said sincerely, I am sorry Adnan. But honestly I don’t have any feelings for you. If it was, I wouldn’t hide it. Whether I am ready for marriage or not, I must let you know how I feel about you.
– Thanks Raisa. To clarify everything. I will never wait for you again. From today I release you from my mind forever.
Raisa stared into Adnan’s eyes for a few seconds. But he noticed that no fillings were working inside his chest. She doesn’t feel bad for Adnan at all.
Adnan left the house. Raisa stood like a statue for a while. He has brought life in front of a strange experience. On the one hand, the mother is expecting. On the other hand, he broke Adnan’s heart. But he has something to do. Raisa can no longer think of herself as five ordinary girls. If someone had to be accepted in life so easily, then he could have forgiven Maruf’s mistakes and lived with him for the rest of his life. Many things happen in the life of husband and wife. But Raisa did not pamper her husband like those five girls.
Raisa loved to have a family. Every girl likes it. He has left his arranged family in a moment. If he had to hold someone’s hand so easily in life, then he would not have left that Maya’s family.
Immediately he said in his mind, Maya? Yes, Maya is.
Thinking about Maya, Raisa came to the kitchen. He glanced around his mother’s kitchen. The image of his own decorated kitchen flashed before his eyes. Raisa loved to cook. Every morning he gets up and makes bread and curry, then two cups of milk tea. Maruf used to wake up in a hurry to leave for office. Raisa, who was waiting for the breakfast, would proudly say, ‘I have been making these for an hour. My state of sweating in the heat is over. And you are going to the office without eating!’
Maruf used to come back after listening to him. Then the two would sit together and have breakfast together. He liked to see Maruf eating to his heart’s content. He used to cook very well for Maruf. Maruf used to prepare 2 to 3 courses of curries every day before returning from office. He spent most of the day in the kitchen. Even if he was not working, he would come back again and again to clean the kitchen. So he is very fond of that kitchen. This kitchen of his mother’s house never feels like his own. But the kitchen of his family was his favorite!
Raisa felt her chest twisting and rising. A very intense pain is coming to the throat. He walked slowly to the bedroom. Looking at the bed, it seemed that this bed was not his. Why don’t you think they are yours?
Raisa went back to memory. He had his own decorated house. He used to make his bed first thing in the morning. He who used to stick to the bed is the supreme care. Every sheet and pillow cover was bought by visiting the market. No one else interfered in his life. But now he has no family of his own. Girls can never get out of the illusion of the world in one life? Despite having everything in his life, why does the pain of a family sometimes torment him like this?
There was a small table next to where Raisa was standing by the door. While thinking about these, he unknowingly held the table cloth in his hand in such a way that a vase fell down from the table. After the vase fell on the floor, Raisa was startled by the sound of breaking glass.
Startled, she ran to the kitchen. Put on hand gloves and put all the glasses up little by little. Then he suddenly thought, when a piece of glass breaks, it makes so much noise, but why does the broken heart inside make no sound?
After a while, Rehnuma Begum and Adnan’s mother returned. Seeing Raisa, he looked around. Perhaps his curious eyes were looking for Adnan. He asked, your father did not come?
– No.
– Where is Adnan?
– Gone.
– Where?
– How do I say that?
– Didn’t talk to you?
Raisa came to her room without answering, took the bag on her shoulder and said, “Mom, I will come now.”
– What happens if the night stays? Go to office from home.
– I have work, mother.
– Something happened with Adnan?
– What will happen again with him? I have nothing to do with him. There was never anything between us. Nothing will ever happen again. If you’re expecting anything, I think it’s best to let it go.
Rehnuma Begum followed Raisa up to the drawing room to say something. But Adnan’s mother is sitting in the drawing room. Seeing him, he could not say anything. Raisa also left the house without giving a chance to say anything. Rehnuma Begum stood with a worried face. He looks very depressed.
Returning to his bachelor’s house, Raisa’s mind became a little dirty. Again I remember Maya in that world. This is where he lives but this house doesn’t really feel like a house. There is no such thing as home at home. He sat down on the floor for a while.
The night is gradually increasing. Need to sleep. I have to go to office in the morning. But the mind is terribly scattered. Raisa lay on the floor bored. He did not realize when he fell asleep on the floor.
Woke up in the morning. It’s past office hours. Raisa quickly got up and came to the office. Busy himself in work. At one point, I went out for coffee and met a few girls on the street. The girls in such beautiful colorful sarees, are all dressed up and moving around like they are a flock of butterflies. They have a lot of color in their minds. Looking at their smiling faces, Raisa had a new realization. I thought to myself, I will organize my life. I will build colorfully. When I have no one in life, I will live not only for myself.
Raisa returned to the office and said to one of her colleagues, Aunty, let’s go out after office.
– Well, sister. Where do you go?
– Where do you go to the lake? Let’s walk together for a while. Urmi also tells Apu.
Raisa wandered outside with two colleagues after office. Order some food and play, the three of them share stories, chats and laughs. His colleague said, Raisa sister go to Newmarket?
– Yes, go ahead
– Let’s go to Newmarket one day. I don’t want to go alone.
– All right. When will you go?
– You find time one day, sister.
Urmi says, my marriage is next week. You two are invited. When you go to Newmarket, you buy a saree to wear to a wedding.
Raisa was surprised and said, Wow! Congratulations Urmi Apu.
– Thank you. I thought I would let you know in one or two. I will give you a card. Now I got a chance so I told. But both will come.
– Of course.
Raisa thought to return home, she had not gone to any wedding for a long time. Urmi will have a lot of fun at her wedding. Dress up, wear fashionable dresses, buy a new brand of perfume. You need to buy a new bag. These thoughts shocked him.
There is no end to Raisa’s plans around the wedding invitation. Sarees to be worn in the yellow program, matching jewelery ordered from online. And went around the market and bought a gorgeous dress for the wedding program. Shopping makes her happy. As usual, today is no exception.
Finally today is the day of that desired invitation. Raisa returned from office and came to Szeguz with a sweet heart. Yellow skin today. There is also a dance and song session today. Ever since he entered the program, he had been playing in his mind.
Suddenly someone came to the side. asked, ‘Your carrots’ have been peeled.’
Raisa turned around in shock. A stranger, looking into his eyes and smiling, said, your carrot.
The man held out his hand and offered Khopa carrots. Raisa thanked the carrot as she tried to put it on herself, her hair getting messy. Then the person said, I will help?
Raisa was startled again. The boy is waiting for an answer. A man of tall, bright health. The clean shaven cheeks are probably made even fairer by the lights. Togbog asked the young man with his eyebrows dancing, I will put it on?
