I could not save the last even after fighting till the end.
My father and Russel’s marriage was completed in the presence of my father and the prominent people of the area.
My father then handed me over to Palash from their house.
And he said, “Mother, you have kept everyone in this family safe until now.
From now on, that is your family. They are all your relatives.
So always try to keep everyone well. Only then will you see that they will all love you.
Today, my father handed me over to Russel from my in-laws’ house and said, “My daughter is a very unfortunate person, father. Don’t ever hurt her.”
There is a huge gap between that day and today’s wedding.
That day, my father told me about my rights and responsibilities.
But today, he told me about my helplessness!
My new life began.
You can also call it a cursed life if you don’t call it a new life.
Russell, who used to treat me with minimal politeness because he thought I was older, started misbehaving with me like a dog and a cat!
The better I treat him, the more annoyed he gets with me.
It’s natural that not only Russell but any man in the world will ignore a middle-aged, ugly woman like me.
But by fate, I lost Palash.
And Russell’s family forced me into this marriage.
Now if he turns his back on me, what will I live with?
If Palash could have given me at least one child, I could have spent the rest of my life with that child.
Then, even if he wanted to, society would not have had the opportunity to force me to be friends with him so much.
Since our marriage, Russell has not even touched me.
He has never said a single kind word to me.
But how long will this go on?
The whole world knows that we are husband and wife.
Russell can’t deny it even if he wants to.
And if that’s the case, why do I cheat again and again?
With the change of time, I myself gradually started to become greedy.
I forgot that Russell was just Rumana’s deposit to me.
I became desperate to become the mother of Russell’s child at one point.
Where men forcefully coerce people to have sex, I myself repeatedly gave myself to Russell, shedding my shame and embarrassment. That’s how I became pregnant for the first time.
But the rules were broken! My first daughter was born eight months into my pregnancy!
But that child was not alive, it was dead!
Thus, as long as the marriage with Russell lasted, I myself forced myself to have a relationship with Russell.
I thought that Russell would completely change once he had a child.
At least he would love and respect me as the mother of his child.
But Allah did not want that.
He wanted something else.
In the first five years of my marriage with Russell, I was able to have four children in a row.
But I was never able to give birth to a living child.
Each time, I gave birth to a child at an untimely age.
And each time, I gave birth to a dead child!
My married life with Russell has been going on for almost ten years.
Although I was able to give birth to a dead child in the first five years, I was never able to have another child in the next five years.
At one time, I started pouring all the money I had saved into the doctor.
Just in the hope of a child.
In the end, there was no benefit, and the little money I had saved in the middle was also gone.
After our marriage, what I was most afraid of was that Rumana would do something wrong.
But Rumana did nothing, maybe she just cried silently and calmed down for a while.
But later she never married anyone else.
She spent the rest of her life alone.
I heard Rumana say through people that she had accepted only one husband in her life.
It is not possible for me to accept anyone else.
Society and family members have subjected the girl to unspeakable mental torture for not getting married.
Yet she never agreed to get married.
Maybe it is her curse that has made me this way today!
Later, I tried a lot to get Russell and Rumana married.
Because in our society, multiple marriages are accepted for men.
But Rumana never agreed.
She made it clear that it is not possible for me to be the last partner of someone I could not be with in my first life.
I am a failed woman.
I didn’t get a husband or a family.
I haven’t found any answer to this day on what I’m clinging to in this life.
Russell has gotten a job in Dhaka to stay away from me.
At first, he used to come home twice a month to meet his parents.
But after my father died, now he doesn’t come even once in two or three months.
And even if he does come, he doesn’t spend the night at home.
I tried a lot to keep him at least for one night, but to no avail.
Whatever the excuse, he has reached Dhaka.
Some people in the area started saying that Russell has married again in Dhaka.
But I never believed him.
Because if Russell has married for the second time, only Rumana will have the right to be his wife.
Because Rumana has made many sacrifices in her life for him and endured many hardships.
Finally, what people said was true.
Suddenly, one day, Russell came home with a lady with a 3-month-old baby.
The woman told her about her relationship with Russell in her own words.
They are husband and wife. Russell married her two years ago.
Although they had been sheltering in the daughter’s father’s house for so long, after she became a granddaughter, they no longer wanted to keep their daughter and son-in-law in their house.
So Russell brought his wife straight to his house.
As far as I could tell from what I heard, the lady didn’t know anything about me.
That is, Russell’s marriage to me was kept a secret from her.
But once she had moved to the village,
then there was no question of not listening to us.
Everyone in the house welcomed the new wife into their home with great joy.
An era had passed since Palash’s death.
Many in the area had forgotten about that bloody conflict.
Both my father and my father-in-law are dead.
So the promise made by my father-in-law is now just a thing of the past.
No one in the house has time to worry about it.
Everyone is happy to have a new wife, but I have a wound left in my mind from the burning pain of losing everything.
Since many years have passed since the murder, there is no longer any fear of the old disasters in this family.
Meanwhile, another incident has occurred.
The new wife, having heard about me from someone, has locked herself in the house and has not opened the door.
